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| 04:04pm 21/09/2005 |
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mood:  happy music: T-Pain - Im Sprung
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i love josh derone carlisle forever and ever! |
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| i LoVe YoU! |
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| 08:40pm 09/10/2004 |
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mood: happy music: Ashlee Simpson : Pieces of Me.
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love to everyone! im soo happy.. |
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| iTs BeeN a WhiLe |
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| 04:35pm 13/09/2004 |
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mood:  lazy music: Akon : Locked Up
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Wow! Okay, so I havent written in here in forever! Sorry, my life asn't been all that interesting. However.. Hurricane Frances sucked everywhere in Palm Beach! No power until the 17th. Uhh GaYy! But whatever, we're staying in our motorhome so we have water and tv and stuff. Finally, I get to go back to school tomorrow! I love school this year, it's awesome! I'm glad I had a positive attitude because I met soooo many people! Anywhoo- I really miss Radu. =(! We'll be able to chill again soon though, I hope!! He's the most sincere person I've ever met. He's so understanding and sweet. YuHh-I just love him to death! Anyways, I chilled with my cousin Kelly last night, shes the shit! hah. We always have sooo much fun when we're together. We couldnt stop laughing in the car and almost crashed. hahahah. Wow-um yeah. Sooo. me and Cyndi went shopping all weekend and couldnt find anything. I think I'm gonna take my pictures to get developed and then I wanna get my nails done. Yeah, I need a jobb! Someone find me one!! lol. Alrighty guys, I'm outtie. Lovee! |
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| sUmMeR's oVeRr! |
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| 01:15pm 10/08/2004 |
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mood:  lonely music: Red Hot Chili Peppers : Under The Bridge
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Yeah, so I've been here and there all freakin summer! I just stayed like 4 days in Lakeland at a really nice hotel. We all went to watch my dad and everyone race and then it got rained out so we hurried and went to Inverness (dirtyy track) and went from 21st to 2nd in 50 laps. Pretty cool I think! Anyways, I wanna be home! =) In Weston, that is.. So yeah, summer went by wayy too fast! It seems like I didn't do anything, but then when I think about it, I was at Cyndi's like all freakin summer. It was soo great! I'll never forget laughing with Junior and Radu until like 4 in the morning. Good times, good times. Radu's a poopie head though. He "dissapeared" for like 2 weeks and then I geta call from his sister. Wow, now we all know where he's been. Not a good thing. I have to write him and see what happened.. It's gay. I love that kidd! But yeah, I start school tomorrow. Stoopid!! I hate it up here, I don't wanna goooo!
Okay, so I'm done babbling about nothing. Jess- I miss ya. When you come back from ur cruise, we gotta have a sleepover!! And Dave, you're a butthead!
Shawn, I'm gonna miss you when u leave for the army! You better come home safe and you better write me! When you come home, we'll have plenty more trips to Dania beach and Jaxon's in the pooring down rain! =) Mucho Love Babe! |
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| 06:11pm 02/08/2004 |
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mood:  aggravated music: The Used : Poetic Tragedy
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Um okay, so Evan, your journal was pretty harsh and pretty upsetting. No words right now..
I just go back from the doctors office. They had to draw blood for mono and gag me with that throat thing for strep and I had to pee in a cup. I hate peeing in a cup more than giving blood! It's so warm and gross..-anyways! Thanks Jessie for calling me from Warped Tour and leaving Story of the Year on my answering machine, I love you! Right now I'm at my aunt's house. I'm bored yet irritated. I feel like poopie. School starts August 11th for me. I absolutely hate that! I hate school up here! It suckss! I miss Cypress sooo much! Anyways, I'm going to try and get into Wellington instead of going back to Royal Palm. I guess it's more of my type of people? Whateverr. It's all stupid!
I'm out. |
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| tHiNgS aRe LoOkiN uP |
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| 07:49pm 29/07/2004 |
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mood:  hungry music: Story of the Year : Anthem of Our Dying Day
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Wow! Yesterday was horrible! I lost my voice completely, I had to stay in bed all day, and I couldn't eat or drink anything so I was really dehydrated. It sucked! My mommy made me chicken soup and I was able to eat some of it, however, it killed my throat! But as for today, I woke up feeling a lot better, my voice is still strained but I can hear myself talk every few words! =) Soo yeah, we're all at my aunt's for pizza and garlic rolls. Yummy! I can't wait! And then we're probably gonna play Phase 10. I love that game. Anywhoo- I'm leaving for Georgia tomorrow if I'm feeling better. Which I really wanna go because I get to go to the Brooks n Dunn, Gretchen Wilson concert on Sunday..But then again I really wanna go to Warped.. Oh well.. can't always get what ya want I guess. Ohh Man, I miss Cyndi soo much. I haven't seen her in like 2 weeks! That's a record for us. haha. Good times, good times. Alrighty, well, hopefully the pizza and garlic rolls will get here soon. I'm hungry as a piggy! Much Love to the True Few!!x0x0*NiZzLe. |
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| *pOoPie MoOd* |
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| 11:47pm 27/07/2004 |
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mood: lonely music: Seether & Amy Lee : Broken
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Okay so it feels reallly good to be talking to an old friend again. Me and Justin have been best friends for like 2 in a half years and we haven't talked in a few months and now we've been talking all night. I missed him a lot. =)! It feels so good to actually feel like I have a true friend out there. Ever since I moved, a lot of people stopped calling me. Some still call when it's convienient for them. It's frustrating feeling like you have soo many friends and then moving and only like 3 people still call you. It really makes me sad. To be honest, the people who still call me, I thought I'd probably never talk to again. I guess I'm really lucky to have a few friends who call me everyday just to say hi and see how I'm doing. I just thought my "best" friend for 2 years would wanna call and see how I am every once in a while. It just seems like I always make the effort to call her and she never returns my calls. I guess the quote is true..
as we grow up.. -alot- of things change
people drift apart .. things rearrange
you loose .friendships. that you thought
would -always- remain & the *best* things in life
_n e V e r s t A y t H e s a M e_
So yeah.. there you have it.. welcome to the depressing life of meee. I know it's stupid to feel that way it just really hurts me knowing that I don't have a best friend anymore. I really miss hanging out and I'll never forget the memories we've shared. It breaks my heart..it really does.
Besides all that, much love to Jessica Molly Jewhead! I love you soo much, you always seem to make me feel better! No matter how long of a period of time we dont talk, we always pick up where we left off and finish each others sentences. We definitly have to have a lot more sleepovers. Reading books and laughing until 3 in the morning. I love you Jewberg. You always make me smile! Enjoy Warped Tour! I wish I was going.. =(**! |
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| sO SaD! |
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| 07:25pm 27/07/2004 |
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mood: rejected music: Yellowcard : View From Heaven
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What's been goin on? I miss you all in Laudy! Palm Beach sucks asss!!! Right now I'm at my grandpa's house in Melbourne because my aunt and uncle are down from Texas. It's pretty cool. This morning sucked soo bad! I woke up with the sorest throat ever!!! My head wanted to explode! I'm feeling a little better now, all I did today was sleep. I'm such a bumm! I'm kinda down because I really wanted to go to Warped Tour this year.. SoOoOoO BaD! But I think I'm leaving for Georgia on Friday so I can't. I'm just bummed out! And anyways, I wouldn't have anyone to go with because the person I was supposed to go with sold me out.. like always. I shoulda known. Whatever! It just sucks soo bad! Ahh! Okay, honestly I don't really have anything positive to say. I'm in a crappy mood. I feel like a reject so I'm gunna go... I miss you Jeff! We'll always be piggys for life! |
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| 08:07pm 21/07/2004 |
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mood:  bored music: Gretchen Wilson : Here For the Party
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So I'm at my grandparents house in Davie. I just got back from spending a few days with Cyndi. She taking senior pictures on friday. Lucky herr! Anyways, I'm bored, as usual. I don't really have anything to say.. Gimme a call if you know what's up for tonight. I love you Jessie!!! |
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| BoRedOm! |
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| 06:15pm 18/07/2004 |
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mood: happy music: Whiskey Lullaby : Brad Paisley & Alison Krauss
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Okay, so it's been freaking forever since I wrote in herr! What's goin on? Same 'ol stufff. I went mudding on my 4-wheeler the other day with my brother and Evan. It was soo funn. I got so dirrty! lol! Something's wrong with it now though.. it keeps making a clicky noise. hmmp! Ohh well. Anywhoo- I'm over at my aunt's house, bored! We're gonna have dinner and cake for my mommy's birthday. I can't wait.. Publix cake is the best! Ohh and Kelsey's down.. Yay!! I'm sooo excited. I missed her soo mucho! I'm prolly gonna go down to Cyndi's tomorrow and chill with everyone down there for a few dayys. Maybe I'll come home with a new piercing.. haha! We all know what happened last time. *giggles* So yeah, I've been extremely happy lately. Me and Billy decided we're gonna be friends. Hopefully nothing stupid happens again. I really miss our friendship and if we can't be together, mine as well be friends, aye? Everyone else probably thinks I'm soo stupid for talking to him again but I honestly don't care what anyone else says because I'm doing what is gonna make me happy and for once I'm not worried about pleasing other people! Wow, it felt good to get that outta my system! Alrighty, I'm gonna try to check my e-mail. This computer isn't letting me. Grrr. Peash out hommies! |
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| 03:25pm 06/07/2004 |
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mood:  indescribable music: New Found Glory : All Down Hill
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These past two days, I don't know what to do with myself.. I'm soo happy yet I feel so sad..When we're all over at Juniors hanging out, I'm soo happy. We have soo much fun there, but then like at 3:30 in the morning, I'll get phone calls from 'him' and he just makes me feel like shit all over again. Honestly I was soo scared last night. OmG! I almost called the cops because now I have a stalker..He just won't leave me alone. Like there's nothing better to do than harass me! Urggg! So I finally fell asleep at like 5:30 this morning and we had to wake up at 8:30 and go to the gym. Wow, I was soooo tired. After that, we went over Juniors and fell back asleep. I was talking to black Mark about my whole stalker situation and he's like let that bitch come over here, I'll bust a cap.. LOL! It was really funnny! So anyways, me and Cyndi hit up the mall and then to fill the car up with gas and it took us 45 minutes because the damn gas station ran outta gas! It was sooo hot and we were getting stared at by all the ghetto homies! ahah. Man, I'm kinda bummed out about having to go home but I think we're going to a funeral for Papa. =( Sucks.. I hate funerals! Then we're probably going to Georgia to Mudders house and to go see everyone there. I'm soo excited to finally be going on vacay! wahooiee! I don't wanna leave Laudy.. *tears* I wish I still lived here.. Urgg. Poopie! Kay, so I'm outtie. Haller! |
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| cOpS sUcK! |
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| 05:38pm 05/07/2004 |
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mood:  blah music: Blink 182 : They Don't Even Care At All
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Im soo hungry! lol. Right now I'm eating a tuna sandwich with some pineapple slices. It's kind of a weird combination but it's really gooood! Today me and Cyndi went with Junior, B.J., and Radu to skateboard. This bitchy lady cop came and made us leave so we went somewhere else and then to Taco Bell..haha. I've never laughed so hard. B.J was throwing chips everywhere and then he threw his cup of hot cheese sauce at the window. It was soooooooo funny! So yeah.. Then we hauled booty home and decided we didnt wanna go out for cuban food so here we are at home! blahh. Last night was freaking awesome. "What happens at Juniors, stays at Juniors" hahaha! Wow, anyways, sorry I havent really had anything to say lately..I just can't write what I want to on here... ;)* Alrighty.. I'm outtie.. |
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| 02:38pm 03/07/2004 |
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mood: bored music: Finch : Letters To You
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Whats upp? Well, today me and Cyndi woke up around 12 and we met Chloe, Jen, & Cori over at Billy Brusters house. He's such a nerrd! :) I'm kinda bored right now.. me and Cyndi are gonna leave in a few minutes and go over Juniors. Hopefully I can take a nap..I'm really tired. Ugh my abs hurt soo bad from laughing so much yesterday. We went to Wal-Mart last night and I was making funny voices and everyone was staring at us laughing. haha! Anywhoo. I'm gonna go. Adios.. |
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| NoT aN oRDiNaRy dAii |
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| 07:34pm 02/07/2004 |
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mood:  hyper music: Finch : "Shutup Song"
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Thursday was great! All smiles for me! =)* It was such an awesome dayy! Well, last night me, Cyndi, Radu, & Junior all hung out. It was fun I guess, but I really wanted to watch Finding Nemo :/.. Oh well. I slept over Cyndi's and we had a little 'fun' last night.. We were up all niight laughing our a-holes off! This morning we had to wake up at like 8 because we had to be at work at 9..Definitly not loving that! But we only had to pull 2 permits today so it went by in like an hour! Then we went to Pembroke Lakes for the American Eagle store. Everything in that store is on sale. So we bought a bunch of clothes. WaHoOiee! After the mall we went over Juniors and us 4 hung out once again. =) . oHh YeAh ~ I went and saw Spiderman 2 on Thursday. It was great..kinda long, but definitly great! Hopefully, I'll go to Starbucks with Lauren tonight. Okay, I'm gonna go.. Call me if anything interesting is going on tonight.. I'm in Laudy!! *:)* Love yass! |
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| SmiLe fOr Me |
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| 08:41pm 30/06/2004 |
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mood:  grateful music: Yellowcard : Way Away
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:) ahh a thousand smiles today!! I've been soo happy lately. 'He' makes me melt inside. I really think I'm falling for him again.. Well, maybe its I never got over it.. I love this feeling.. I haven't felt it in such a longg time! Its soo amazing.. I can't wait to see you on Thursday.. Im soo excited! Anyways, Sam's upset with me.. :( She's my favorite jew ever and Im so sorry if I hurt her feelings! *tear* Well, we're leaving my grandpas house in a few minutes, I don't know when I'll be able to update this because my computer at home is down.. sucky, soo suckyy! All my Love! -Natalee Michelle. |
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| 02:12am 30/06/2004 |
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mood:  curious music: The Ataris : Better Way
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1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
12. Physically, what stands out?
13. Emotionally, what stands out?
14. Do you wish I was cooler?
15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
17. Am I loveable?
18. How long have you known me?
19. Describe me in one word.
20. What was your first impression?
21. Do you still think that way about me now?
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. Do you think I'll get married?
24. What makes me happy?
25. What makes me sad?
26. What reminds you of me?
27. If you could give me anything what would it be?
29. How well do you know me?
29. When's the last time you saw me?
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
31. Do you think I could kill someone?
32. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
33. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
34. Are you going to put this on your LiveJournal and see what I say about you? |
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| 01:03am 30/06/2004 |
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mood:  stressed music: Dixie Chicks : Cold Day in July
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When is this drama gonna end?? Seriously I've had more that enough...I'm so hurt by a lot of things, I feel like going to sleep and never waking up! The only person I can talk to about all this crap is Evan and I feel like I hurt him too. I don't know. I just hate all the sadness all of a sudden. If I'm doing what's right, then Why does it hurt soo bad? God, please help me! I feel like such an ass. I just want all of this to go away. I have no one to talk to about how I feel, no one knows the how I really feel inside and it's killing me. I guess I have to concentrate on the good things in my life.. For one I have My mommy, God do I love her! She's been so understanding through all of this. She really has helped me through. I'm soo grateful that me and Evan are so close. I don't know where I'd be without him in my life. He always seems to talk some sense into me and he always cheers me up when I'm down. I care about him soo much, I just wish he could see that. I'm lucky to have someone as true as him! =). OhH and the other night I kinda went on a double date..hehe. It was me, Radu, Cyndi, & Junior. Radu is sooo sweet! We really gotta hang out more! lol. But I really don't wanna boyfriend, I just want to be my own person..so I can figure out who I am and what it is I want outta life. Plus it's summertime and there are sooo many boys!! YaYe! Wow- it's amazing how focusing on the good can make me smile again! WaHoO! Alrighty then, ya'll need to post some comments! Love you guys!! xo0x |
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| dave, youre freakin awesome! |
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| 11:19pm 29/06/2004 |
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mood:  accomplished music: Yellowcard : Ocean Avenue
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Well props to Dave for hookin me up with the pimpest livejournal! He's the coolest! Okay so tonight was extremely difficult to get through, I can't stop crying. I wish I could take it all back, but this is probably for the best..I thought I would never smile again, but leave it up to Dave to put one on my face! Thanks buddy, you rock! Anywhoo- I miss Alex, she's been in Australia for wayy too long..come home!! We're going to Warped Tour together again this year! *gahh* cant freakin wait! Hopefully we won't get sun poisoning again though, hah, for like a week all we could do was lay on the couch and watch movies. We were soo blistered! :)... I miss every single one of you in Ft. Lauderdale! I'll be there soon! Alrighty kids, time to finish up..Lots of Love!! -Natz |
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| 07:55pm 29/06/2004 |
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mood:  scared music: Blink 182 : Valentine
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Well, you know the saying when one door closes, another one opens? I think I actually believe thats true now. It's weird, like I feel like it was just meant to be..Okay I guess what I'm trying to say is that ever since me and billy broke up, I've gotten in contact with a bunch of "lost" friends. Even though it hurts soo much to lose him as my boyfriend, it feels so good that I actually still have friends out there who care about me. For the past 7 months we were together, I kinda ditched all my friends to be with him all the time and I was really surprised that they still cared about me. =)!! I'm really learning how to find myself. I think I just forgot who I was, who I used to be, and just changed because of him. I don't regret it at all, I just think that it was definitly supposed to be this way. Anyways, a huge thank you to David Robert Fifer for being so freakin patient with me while I was so confused on how to do this whole live journal thing! hAlLeR!! |
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| 06:50pm 29/06/2004 |
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mood: depressed music: The Used : Buried Myself Alive
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Well, today has been so hard. I miss Billy but I really think things are working out for the best..It's really hard to let go of 7 months of memories, ups and downs, smiles and laughs. God, I'm gonna miss him so much! But, honestly I think things happen for a reason and even though it's hard right now, it's what's meant to me. I just can't believe he thinks I cheated on him and that I woke up one morning and stopped loving him. I honestly never thought it'd get like this. But it did, and there's nothing that I can do about it now, so I just gotta keep my head up and move on. After all, God put eyeballs in the front of your head for a reason..right? |
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